hold my hand..and never let go..

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

But things just get so crazy
Living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road
Get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

oh well. no the maid for me haha but it's okay. anw heard we finish at 9.30 tml. so good. finish rush back to ac. rush back to rj for training with the jap guys, then go watch charlie. yay. and dinner?

i think the cinefile is damn cool. haha i like the screens. but then the problem i see is that if more than one person wants to watch the movie there's only one set of headphones. ohwells.

i want BoA's cd! dun care. must buy this week. and they actually featured rockson on this month's lime. i need more sleep. zzzzzzzzz....

..hold my hand and never let go..

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

bahhh. spent the whole weekend studying so hard but still gonna fail.. i just can't see the damn thing lah. ugh. but at least now no more test for like a month. haha. so this week can relax a bit. but still have integration assignment, pw and library proposal to do up. sigh.

maybe i've really gotten over her. without even knowing about it. thinking about what you said has made things much clearer. but i still dunno what to do. what course to take. i guess i'll just let time run its course and hope everything turns out for the best. haha. listen to my own advice right. some things are beyond my control.

and yay! Black Eyed Peas! hahaha.. and the maid! or charlie if we're unlucky.. but still! there's always another day! hmm i'll go check timings now.

When everything is wrong
I come talk to you
you make things alright
when I'm feelin' blue

You are such a blessing
and I won't be messing
with the one thing that brings light
to all my darkness

You're my best friend
and I love you (love you)
and I love you (love you)
yes I do

There is no other one
who can take your place
I feel happy inside
when I see your face

I hope you believe me
'cause I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you
that I need you

You're my best friend
and I love you (love you)
and I love you (love you)
yes I do

I'm here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel
when you start crying

You're my best friend
and I love you (love you)
and I love you (love you)
yes I do

..hold my hand and never let go..

Sunday, August 28, 2005

THANK YOU WENLOONG! hahaha yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!! BLACK EYED PEAS!!!! WOOHOO!! 2nd concert! hahaha..

and the jap judo ppl are like super ultra pros who trashed most of us super super fast. but it was damn fun. haha even though with my battle scar on my face, a sprained right thumb. and a stiff neck this morning. i mean. damn cool. and their jap coach taught us some super cool stuff too! can't wait for tue and wed's training (=

hey cheer up ok? some things are just beyond your control. all we can do is hope and pray. and i'll do just that for you. so smile! (:

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're beautiful it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
Cause I'll never be with you

You're beautiful, You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
There must be an angel with a smile on her face
When she thought up that I should be with you

But it's time to face the truth
I will never be with you...

..hold my hand and never let go..

Friday, August 26, 2005

HAHA. thanks minghan.

http://rockson.blogspot.com/2005/07/nkf-boss-got-cheebye-12-months-bonus.html

DAMN funny. but its local and obviously from the url, super vulgar so discretion is advised.

and this too.

http://uncyclopedia.org/wiki/Main_Page

total and utter nonsense that's absolutely hilarious.

and my mom's taking mtv dance lessons. haha quite cool. but today apparently the gay dance instructor with those oh-so-tight shirts went to indonesia for holiday. so she learnt bollywood dance. hahaha

reminds me of saturday afternoons, when i have nothing to watch on tv, and the tv is set to central cause i tape sat morn cartoons. i end up watching bollywood flicks. haha. they are extremely amusing. like there was one where they had this ultrapro fighting guy who had to save his wife and son from some evil scientist living in some whacko fortress. haha then when they fly in the air and everything you could see the STRINGS attached to their backs.

and they have cheesy romantic plots too. like there was this guy. he refused to work for anyone but himself. but he was so disobedient that his mom got a heart attack. and the only way they could get money for the operation was if he took up the job that he turned down before. so he did. bu then at the hospital, he took out this dollar note and wrote some poem on it. then used it to buy something. then the story goes on. and then this girl gets the note in some change and guess WHAT? haha they meet and fall in love -_-

how lame can it get.

..hold my hand and never let go..

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

YES I FINALLY PASSED MY PFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha yay. surprised i could do three pull-ups lah. hahaha then i wouldn't have run 2.4 today right after the 5 stations if not for chris. thanks man! whee! no more FM for me in term 4! hahahah.

..hold my hand and never let go..

Sunday, August 21, 2005

haha did the most shameless thing yestersday. went to try out the osim massage chairs at j8 cause they were having a roadshow. lol.. so many ppl staring at us hahahaha.. we were in sch u some more. oh well. why did he have to tag along? i mean i wanted to spend some time alone with her but then he jUst had to turn up and follow us around... bah. but i guess i can't blame him cause yah there's nothing going on between us anyways.

My com's fixed! haha. one day only v fast. and rakion's cool it's like jedi outcast. and i like it cause i can actually win haha... bleah i need maths tution.

hope i know what i'm doin with this tagboard thingy

..hold my hand and never let go..

Saturday, August 20, 2005

ok my com has a bloody virus cause of the stupid hackers competition. dunno what i dled. so i can only use library com (now) or my dad's laptop which is aLSO password protected...

i'm addicted to duel masters. haha bad time to start on another money-wasting card game but i don't care. haha the show is cool 6pm mon to fri on central. eh even sergius watches it and he thinks its not bad. haha.. even though its damn lame and sometimes unbelivably stupid. haha..

and i just read She's addicted to pokemon. hahah yay. so what if you're childish? i don't care. makes me like you even more. haha but oh well. doesn't really matter now doesn't it. sigh. i remember the times we spent. haha leaning. ahhhh. damn damn damn. ok nvm. this is cryptic.

and i love the way she can make me laugh.

hmmm. maths test on vectors later today. and 3 tests next week plus eom. sigh maybe i'll skip library duty today. ahh bell rang already.

sigh. i really like talking to you. haha even though it's like 1am and we're both groggy and falling asleep.. haha cause i always manage to clear my thoughts. and listen to iNTERESTING stories lol.. yeah.. and i guess you understand me better than anyone else. and you know how to make me feel better. (= thank you. don't ever stop ok?

..hold my hand and never let go..

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! ok today ms ngin took over our break from 1-2pm because she had to go settle her insurance claim or something like that. cause some ah beng in a mitsubishi lancer did an illegal u-turn right outside rj and banged her car. soooooo. she let us buy food to eat in class. so we called mcdonald's 24h delivery service! haha ordered a lot of food. thanks to wenloong who called and ordered and gave out and everything. so all was okay. until the end of the econs lesson.

i sipped like the last sip of my drink. then shook the cup. and heard something inside. i was like. hmm the ice should have melted by now right. so i opened it and went:

WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!

cause instead of ice. i saw some black shit inside. haha but then upon closer inspection, guess what it was? the nozzle of the drinks dispenser machine!!!!!!!! hahahaha so they couldn't dispense coke anymore. so we were laughing in the class and ms ngin asked us to sue them hahahaha but she's just pissed abt her car lah.

so wenloong called macs and they said they'll replace the drink. but then i wanted to keep the nozzle! haha and i had finished the drink anyway lah. imagine my shock. so we sat through the maths lesson wondering abt our compensation. then after sch i we went to the canteen to show off a bit. then the manager called.

haha then wenloong said my friend's very traumatised and he wants to make a complaint. so the manager spoke to me. and she was very very traumatised. and i felt a little bad. haha right. cause apparently, they can't do crap without the nozzle and she said she called the serviceman to come down but he'll only go down at the end of the day. and she was like saying non-stop i'll go down personally to apologise if you want and i was like it's ok it's ok.. haha

then she said. so what can i do to make you happy? haha then i was like uhhh.. uhhh.. then she said i could promote you a meal. so i asked wenloong and bryan what meal and they said mcnuggets, so i said mcnuggets.then she said ok i'll give you the 9pc mcnugget meal? then after a while i thought meal very hard to share. so i said. um no need meal lah. but could i have the 20piece nuggets instead. HAHAHAHHAHAHA. then everyone started laughing. then she said sure. then i said just send your delivery guy here. then she was like ok ok. then i said. um can i try the four new sauces? HAHAHAHAHAHA... omg that was killer man. but she was ok let me see if we still have cause they're very popular. so yeah.

we got our 20-piece nuggets and 1 more coke. haha. but the delivery guy made us feel quite bad. cause he said, next time don't complain, just call and change drink, cause think of the manager, she might get sacked and she has a family to support... haiii. make me feel guilty. haha then the 20pc nuggets quite expensive also abt 10 bucks... but then.

FUNNY LAH! made my day.. hahahahaha. oh yah shared the 20pc nuggets with new friends the ruggers haha and david and wenloong and bryan.. hee.

yup and i wanted to blog abt not taking stairs this week but then i failed that vow today already so nvm. and one other thing i wanted to say but i forgot already haha too much laughter..

whee! good call to call macs today!

..hold my hand and never let go..

Sunday, August 14, 2005

every moment i spend with you is a moment i treasure

No not Mr. let it burn usher. but ushering parents! haha.. first ushering job in rj. did tons in acsi for prefects so nothing new. haha.. just that we worked with security and the guy is damn cool lah. just don't understand why the councilors can't do it and they have to get ct reps to do...

and i'm glad i volunteered to go in the early morning slot even though i didn't get enough sleep. haha..

..hold my hand and never let go..

Saturday, August 13, 2005

You know, everything that I'm afraid of

You do, everything I wish I did

Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know, I should tell you how I feel

I wish, everyone would disappear

Every time you call me, i'm too scared to be me

And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you

I hope you feel the way that I do

I get a rushWhen I'm with you

Ooh, I've got a crush on you

A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to

Sometimes, you tell me things that I don't wanna know

I just want to hold you

You say, exactly how you feel about him

I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

I got a crush on you

I hope you feel the way that I do

I get a rush

When I'm with you

Ooh, I've got a crush on you

A crush on you

Ooh, I wish I could tell somebody

But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows

I've got a crush on you

A crush on you, I got a crush

HeyI got a crush, I got a crush on you

You say, everything that no one says

But I feel, everything that you're afraid to feel

I will always want you, I will always love you

I got a crush on you

I hope you feel the way that I do

I get a rush

When I'm with you

Ooh, I've got a crush on you

A crush on you

..hold my hand and never let go..

i bought a new pen today. haha the navy blue G2 which i think is an absolutely cool super nice colour. i like the feeling when you buy a new pen or something new for that matter. especially new pens that you've never bought before (i.e. that type of pen lah).. there'll be this irresitible urge to use it for the rest of the day. no matter what you write you'll use that pen to write...
hopefully it'll stay working for a long while. and i don't spin and drop it too many times. haha..

and i didn't go training today cause its optional. but then i would have gone if i had brought my gi and i had known that mr. tan wasn't going. cause then i'll be able to try out all the stuff i wanted to try but couldn't try cause he was there. haha..

going sch tml morn at 8am.. bahhhhhhh so early.

cheer up k! i'm sure he'll still sell lots of albums if he releases one which i think he should.

..hold my hand and never let go..

Friday, August 12, 2005

I PASSED MY 2.4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12min 50s... D some more leh!!!!!!!!! First time i passed in 4 years!!!! i'm so damn happy lah!!!!!!!! haha too bad it's not actual test. and today got nice weather also... hahahaha.. YAY! hahahaha

on a super-ultra-cannot-believe-it stupid note. i walked into a wall today! haha. cause coming back from toilet right 4th floor. minghan dared me to walk with my eyes closed. haha so i did. then walking that time i said :

"Minghan! Tell me if i'm about to hit something!"

"But i'm walking with my eyes closed too!"

"Orh ok. Wesley! Tell me if i'm gonna..."

*BANG*

haha shit.. damn funny. my toes hit first then my knees then my two front teeth cause my mouth was open. can't rmb if i hit my forehead. not exactly pain lah. but felt irritated. kept pushing my two front teeth forward. hahaha so malu. lucky no one saw. cause minghan was closing his eyes. he only heard the bang. and wesley wasn't behind us. he was refilling his water bottle. haha so yeah. i realised i should have put my hands in front like a zombie. haha

oh well. that's what you get for having too much confidence in yourself. hahaha..

happy day today! pw extended to monday! yay. and met someone too haha.. whee!

..hold my hand and never let go..

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Just Want You To Know
by Backstreet Boys

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger
Always in my mind
The days they went cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me

I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

All the doors are closing
I’m trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it was me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away

And I just want you to know that I’ve been fighting to let you go
Some days I’ll make it through, and then there’s nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there’s a day you’ll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again, just want you to know

That since I lost you, I lost myself
I know I can’t fake it, there’s no one else

did you know that parrots can never forget a word they learn how to say? cool stuff.

wonder if i'll ever have enough time to do what i want to do.
i think ruien and fiona xie are damn chio. esp last night.

jessica alba and emma watson are hot too.

a lot of judo ppl's bdays coming up in september.

what happened to edge? mr. money in the bank. overshawdowed by hbk and hulk hogan.

and gunbound is fun.

ranting and raving.

inuyasha is damn cool as a demon.

i've thought of one more. must be able to make me laugh often. not a boring person.

me too. i also wonder when was the point when conversation died. sigh. i miss you.

and i still haven't met maxwell.

and i think pw is ok lah. only sort of a waste of time.

but i guess it's cause i'm used to it?

and i still haven't watched charlie. or initial d. or A LOT LIKE LOVE.

A3 paper is bigger than A4 paper.

i miss my old white cordless phone with the cool antennae.

why does it always rain on me?

i got an econs drq test tmr but i'm doing this now.

and i haven't done any maths tutorials.

and i have 3 maths tests in the mext 2/3 weeks.

Do you want to save the changes to document 1?

i got sold but i'm not a soldier.

ok.

..hold my hand and never let go..

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where that river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

This is home truly, where I know I must be

Where my dreams wait for me, where that river always flows

This is home surely, as my senses tell me

This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home

haha so proud to be a Singaporean! yeah! really don't care what other ppl say/think! but it's the first time in my 16yrs and 7months that i feel so proud lah. like tears welled up near the end of the ndp.. hahaha..

yeahh had a great dinner! thanks dad! at toa payoh lorong 1. heartland food! hahaha so long nv eat already. and my mom forever complaining hot.

and yeah i'm damn proud to say i sing the national anthem audibly and say the pledge loudly EVERY ASSEMBLY hahaha..

didn't see ruien cause went out for dinner but nvm, caused i taped it!

did pw with michelle tan today. chuanyue, hung sick cannot come, longtao boarding curfew or smthing. bahh. but we managed to accomplish a lot of things i think. haha..

i want to watch CHARLIE! haha and bewitched looks ok too...

happy happy national day!

..hold my hand and never let go..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

..hold my hand and never let go..

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

today started off quite crappy. haha sales were good. highest at 144.50 but then cause i think we never claim cost price but nvm. had to stay back to count money and clear everything and stuff but i didn't really mind. anw. felt really bad abt psing those who wanted to go my house like minghan wesley and bryan.. but 4 ppl v boring leh. so so so so sorry.

so took train to orchard. found out tim wyn and foof playing lan. didn't want to play. met daphne along the way. went to lido to look for ppl. found out jiexuan and rilong were coming to orchard. left daphne to go meet them. thanks anw! for keeping me company for like 10 min hahaha.. then met them and went wisma the pizza place for lunch. their vongole a bit spicy but nice. passable. shared or rather treated them to chocolate madness or something.

then we walked around. until my ac friends called and we decided to watch wedding crashers! yay! haha it's a VERY VERY GOOD MOVIE! haha ok maybe not that good lah. but worth my money. haha.. i thought it was a mindless no brainer guy flick. but then it surprisingly had a good sweet plot that makes you feel good. like you can't help but feel happy for the guy (: yeahhh. yah but movie was at 4.30 and we bought the tix at 3.30 so we went borders and stoned. and i met the judo ppl again with shuying this time so i went up and talked to them. haha that place is really cool. nv sat there b4 but i'll definitely go back!

then we watched. met hot stuff retard with 3 girls there. haha and caleb and bloong. then went home for dinner. yah then while doin vectors i came up with this. haha

list. in random order. no time to prioritise.

shorter than me.
intelligent but not smarter than me.
able to start/continue conversations cause i'm not very good and i hate silences.
good sense of humour (can tolerate my lameness)
long hair preferred!
good face, doesn't matter whether pretty, chio, cute. some ppl say i have bad taste anyways.
good legs is a bonus!
nice voice! serious!
nice smile.
can tolerate my childish obssessions (pokemon! cartoons!) as well as typical guy stuff (games, wrestling, ogling at celebs)
willing to listen and help
willing to be helped (let me take care of her)
won't bruise my ego.
no need to be sporty cause i'm not.
confident. but not tooo confident and outspoken
make some decisions on her own
do stupid stuff with me at strange moments
doesn't complain too much
but straightforward enough to tell me what's wrong. ( i might complain but at least i can change)
spur me to work harder?
likes same music as me
likes to watch movies and read.

haha maybe more. i'll update if i think of more. doesn't really sound like m eh?

..hold my hand and never let go..

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Hey, baby my nose is getting big
I noticed it be growing when I been telling them fibs
Now you say your trust's getting weaker
Probably coz my lies just started getting deeper
And the reason for my confession is that I learn my lesson
And I really think you have to know the truth
Because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more
But after I did it I don't know what I did it for
I admit that I have been a little immature
Fucking with your heart like I was the predator
In my book of lies I was the editor
And the author
I forged my signature
And now I apologise for what I did to you
Cos what you did to me I did to you

Nononono baby, nononono don't lie
Nononono, yeah you kno know know know you gotta try
What you gonna do when it all comes out
When I see you & what you're all about
Nonono baby, nononono don't lie

She said I'm leaving Cos she can't take the pain
It's hard to continue this love it ain't the same
Can't forget the things that I've done inside her brain
Too many lies committed too many games
She feeling like a fool getting on the last train
Trying to maintain but the feeling won't change
I'm sorry for the things that I've done and what I became
Caught up in living my life in the fast lane
Blinded by lights, cameras, you know the fame
I don't know the reason why I did these things

And I lie and I lie and I lie and I lie
And now our emotions are drained
Cos I lie and I lie and a little lie lie
And now your emotions are drained

Nononono baby, nononono don't lie (no, don't you lie)
Nononono, yeah you know know know know you gotta try (got to try, got to try)
What you gonna do when it all comes out (what you gonna do baby)
When I see you & what you're all about
Nonono babe, nononono don't lie
Because you kno you kno you kno you kno you know gotta try
Yeah you kno you kno you kno you kno you know you gotta try

Yo, I'm lying to my girl
Even though I love her
And she all in my world
I give her all my attention and diamonds & pearls
She's the one who makes me feel on top of the world
Still I lie to my girl, I do it

And I lie and I lie and I lie till there's no turning back
I don't know why, (and I lie and I lie till I don't know who I am)

this week's ok i guess. many mnay tests coming up and pw's due this fri so 5 day holiday not much. wasted i didn't go take part in ddr cause of judo haha. and this whole week tired cause of pullups in the morn. haha and circuit training in judo is super super super tiring.

and speaking of training.. she knee-ed me in the balls yesterday haha. pain man! haha but then yah i dunno. we were super close. and yah. i'm not sure. but i'll never forget abt m. so yeah! haha birthday presents everywhere. thanks to the two of you who helped me choose sw's present haha.. but then my friend ps me today so cannot go out so i have to pass to her some other time. oh well.

and you better stay away from her this time k. i won't call you a bastard. for now. or yet. just yah. i don't want things to end up like they did the last time. REMEMBER RULE NUMBER 2!

..hold my hand and never let go..

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

i wish i could have stayed longer

..hold my hand and never let go..

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

haha today super funny. thinking of how and when and what excuses to pass w the chocs.. yeah but i must say the chocs are a blardy ripoff lah!!!! wth. 2.20 for a 4-sheets-of-paper thin piece of crap. haha and it doesn't even taste good... and yeah happy! haha.. we must really be careful of what we do.. ppl see ah. sure die. hahaha.. but nvm!

and mrs lee just said maybe we don't sell ice cream on monday............................................. i mean. you asked the guy for quotation already lah!!!!!!!!! how can back out now? stupid. then sell what. fishballs. drinks. haha i may just bake cookies to sell on sunday.. wanna come help? oh wait. cannot right... going back... haiiiiii i honestly dunno how already...

wenloong: i can be a thief!

me: but then you'll need braces.

me: cause you're not straight.

..hold my hand and never let go..

Monday, August 01, 2005

haha rush post. mom nagging at me to sleep. anw friday night went for adi's farewell party. haha didn't expect so many ppl like 100 plus lah. ok maybe exaggerating a bit but a LOT. and so much booze. the most i've seen and many ppl said too much also. if authorities went we sure screwed. haha but damn proud! nv drink. only 3 sips when ppl ask me to try. they got pro mixer leh. haha.. and its really v nice when i try but see! i resisted! and i decided my bday party in dec will be a super CLEAN one! hahah no alcohol man... pure clean fun hahaha... yah sadly couldn't stay longer and see our hahaha.. then friday b4 the party went j8 with van help her choose nic's present. haha damn funny doll.. saw shaopeng and his gf there at macs. haha

and then saturday went ultramarathon. hahaha damn funnnnn! selling all the stuff.. doing stupid stuff. scared ppl lao sai cause of us haha.. and stuff we did that might lead to ppl thinking stuff. haha but i still think you give good ones k! even though i'm probably highly biased... but u still owe me!

..hold my hand and never let go..